Your ghost

Walking away from my own shadows
haven't seen a single day of light
given up on every spirit around
one soul I search , its your ghost

Friends say life has to go on
makes sense but why does it hurt
some demons we make of ourselves
some are mistakes we never did intend

I say this with all conviction and thought
I'm only human sometimes I get lost
for reasons that seem unworthy of me
sins are forgiven, burdens I carry

Casual conversations I hide within
slight ray of sunshine sometimes I find
Shy from you ghost, shed a tear or two
where I walked once there was you.

Missed you

Today its late and I miss you...
Yup keeping it plain and simple
just wanna let you know how I feel
A bit of the distance while the rest is...
Just knowing you ain't around

Yes today its a sad night...
And I yet again dream of you
Looking out of my window I don't see
I long for that smile that makes me melt
Just a moment that makes me move

Today is a dreamless sleep. ..
Wanting to drive down the riverside
With the breeze hitting my face
Holding your hand, lying in your arms
Just to feel whats it like being with you

Today is silent emptiness. ..
Don't know how to fill the shallow
want to sleep but can't seem to shut eye
Lost in a place where I'm alone waiting
Just to hold and bury myself in you

Sleepless

A sinking heart and empty sighs
I lay in bed with eyes open wide

My mouth can't tell what's felt within
Hell I don't know what lies im living

Doors stay shut no matter how hard I try
The person I am today I hate,can't deny

Through nights I just can't fall asleep
Somehow the silence just makes me weep

Tired of sadness from my head to toe
Wishing on a wishing well to make it all go

Running in circles

Life is short...
Perhaps very short it can be
No time for second chances
Mistakes that stalk for free

A hunch only driven by doubt
Life can change without a thought

How can people so much so last
Leaving what sorrows they burry in the past

Through bluest nights and gloomy days
Eyes get weaker with hurt and pain
Fights and loneliness never to stay
But back we are here fighting again.

Lemonade

Today i'm inspired to write and with this I wanna look forward towards starting fresh.

I'm jobless and most importantly been very impatient lately...
Have been thinking about how my past could have turned out differently if I'd not lived it the way I have. I feel like a complete mess yet I feel a sense of maturity that comes with time and I don't mean it like I have been naive or stupid over the years but Now! I know that even after all this I am content with myself simply because I believe that I have not given up on myself before or my life and i'm still willing to do things differently things that will teach me to make my life better so I can make is even better for my parents.. my family... its like the proverb that talks about life giving lemons. .. well for me the proverb is more than lemonade... to me its so that  "if life gives u lemons you could juggle them; juice them or just dump them but finally its yours no matter what you do with it... its eventually your life...right??? And my life to me is much more than lemons and lemonade its just a zest that leaves a hint of sourness but in entirety the dish is just fabulous and if not at least edible... So if my life isn't great its still MY LIFE!